Sunday, March 29, 2009

A Milestone

So. This is my 100th post. I have been racking my brain for something witty, poignant, wise and something that will finally get those folks at the We Publish Bestsellers And Will Make You Rich And Famous Forever Publishing House to notice me and make me rich and famous forever. Or maybe to get Oprah to notice my pathetic yet brave existence and give me lots of cool free stuff for being a pathetic yet brave inspiration. Sniff.

Alas. Nothing.

Instead I had a week where Dr. Wonderful told me I probably had to have shoulder surgery again to fix the first shoulder surgery (although he did look wonderful telling me :)).

I had to have a test that involved sticking a six inch long needle into my shoulder joint.

Dr. H. told me he thinks I have a form of MS that is really really bad and will cause me to be blind and paralyzed. Oh, and dead. I have to have a blood test for this possible diagnosis and have been dragging my feet, being of the Ignorance Is Bliss school of thought.

I had my monthly Tysabri infusion on Wednesday, one stick for blood work, two sticks to start an IV (missed on the first; oops sorry about that).

Had an MRI of the brain to track MS progression yesterday. Another stick for IV contrast. Have an MRI of the spine tomorrow. Another stick for IV contrast. Then…I think that’s it for bodily assaults for at least the next two weeks.

My parent’s continue to be in crisis and I continue to be the family pariah amongst my siblings who rejected out of hand my plan for a geriatric social worker to assist us.

Consequences of being out of work for almost a year continue to dog me.

I am still fat.

However, (in my life there is always a ‘however’, otherwise I wouldn’t still be here) I had a perfect cup of tea this morning while I watched the rain.

I have friends who endlessly affirm me and their love for me.

I have children who, despite our issues, I adore. And who, I suspect, have some affection for me.

I have this incredible medium of the Internet, where I have made so many new friends and have been exposed to such fascinating lives.

I sit cross legged in bed with the newspaper, cozy on this gloomy day under a favorite soft, worn patchwork quilt. My knitting is piled beside me, along with skeins of gorgeous hand spun wool I found on Etsy. My bedroom is exactly how I want it, old oak dressers, floral linens, buttery yellow walls, books everywhere. My little dog snuggles against me and heaves an enormously contented sigh.

Life is good.



Anonymous said...

Congratulations on 100!

You always amaze me with your posts. Being the selfish dog that I am I will admit I'm happy the good folks at We Publish Bestsellers aren't beating down your door. If they did you wouldn't have time for us and you would be greatly missed.

As usual when I read of someone that truly has a reason to complain, I feel guilty. I hope you get the most positive results possible from your tests, and the doctor is wrong in his thinking about your particular form of MS.

You paint a lovely picture of your dog, your bedroom and you.

Marie said...

Oh, Tricia, you sweet thing!!! *hug*

Don't feel guilty, that is ridiculous! We all have things to deal with and we all have reasons to complain.

If we didn't have reason to complain life would not be worth living. lol

Da Old Man said...

Congratulations on your 100th post.

I had to read the post a couple times. It sounds like you need a blood test to see if you're dead.

Keep your chin up, kiddo. You are an inspiration.


Marie said...

Great editing catch Joe! Thanks, I revised it for clarity.

And thanks for the always kind words, my friend! :)

Margo said...

Congratulations on 100 and what a stunning post. at "I had a perfect cup of tea this morning while I watched the rain." you had me totally riveted and in tears of joy til the end :)

Marie said...

Wow, Margo, thank you!!!

Now make sure you tell the people at We Publish Bestsellers. lol

Or Oprah. lol

Thank you for being one of my readers!!

manju said...

Congratulations on completing a century of posts!

Don't worry, you'll publish a bestseller before long- a literary scout is sure to come across your wonderful blog!

Marie said...

Thank you Manju!! I was so worried when I started that I would not have anything to write about. HA HA HA HA HA.

Good thing I didn't know. lol

Lin said...

Happy 100!! I did the same thing--I wanted something fab for the anniversary post and I'm left flat and nothing brilliant to write about. Sigh.

I did like your "positive" list--although "not dead yet" isn't on there! :)

Sherri said...

Congratulations on your 100th post! You know, whenever I have a lot of bad luck I think, that might be good material for my blog!

Fat, frumpy and fifty... said...

great post. I may steal its feel and mood for another day! 100 posts what a milestone eh?

thanks for finding me and so me you!

HappySkinnyGirl said...

Happy 100! =) And I hope the doctor is wrong! For us that have no real reason to complain, that's a good reminder that life is good if we choose to see it.

Jane Turley said...

Congratulations on the 100th post Marie. I'm so glad you are continuing to write; it is a therapy in itself. You have a great sense of humour that shines through the agonies you have to endure - I find your blog marvellously entertaining because of its many facets. So for as long as you keep drinking that tea, make sure you keep writing too.

Marie said...

Lin: Thanks! Yes indeed, not being dead yet is always something to be grateful for! lol

Sherri: I LOVE writing about bad luck!! lol It is always entertaining to people who have nothing but good luck. lol

F, F & F: I am glad we found each other too! The best part of blogging. You are welcome to my moods anytime! lol

Jessica: Thank you so much! I should find out in a few days. I finally went for the test yesterday. Fingers crossed.

Jane: Thank you, my friend! And thank you for the endless encouragement you give me. *hug*

Proud Mom said...

Congratulation on your 100th post, Marie. It's been an absolute pleasure reading your blog. I loved this one, because you have the "Life's lemons are for Lemonade" attitude.

I cannot tell you how much you have made me look differently at life. I nearly broke a few ribs when I read some of your anecdotes and sometimes I wipe tears from my eyes (and boogers from my nose) after reading others.

Stop by my blog soon because I have something for you!!!

This blogger thing has done wonders for me and I just want everyone to know the great people I've met.