Friday, February 22, 2008

Fell Off

Fell off the wagon last night in two’s:

2 pieces of pizza
2 martinis
2 pieces of soda bread

One big tummy ache. A colossal headache.

Tons of self-condemnation.

I don’t even LIKE soda bread for Pete’s sake!

But the martinis were lovely. :) And so was the pizza.

I swam off about 400 calories yesterday, so that mitigates the damage somewhat. But my pride and confidence are sorely wounded.

I want to be prepared for the next time with alternatives to giving in to cravings. I have to put my thinking cap on.

It doesn’t help that I am very MS-y today. A muscle spasm has frozen my upper back, making it hard to move. I have currents of pain rhythmically shooting down my limbs and my right hand is numb and twitching. A very fun package. Can guilt cause a relaspse?!?! I usually hate taking pain meds, but today not taking them is not an option if I am going to be functional at all.


But on the plus side, it is snowing here in Jersey and it is so, so pretty! Bella and Corrie are enjoying the snow.

5 comments:

janet said...

Marie, don't let the guilt get to you. Every day is a new day. A new start. So yesterday you had a couple of pieces of pizza....big deal. Today you will do better. You have US be your side cheering you on, don't forget that.....

I am trying hard to move more each day, some days are better than others. This snow is making it hard, what am i supposed to do, walk circles around the kitchen table? I have an appointment with my newly found Physiatrists on March 5th, i have such big hopes that he will get me into a therapy pool, I hope i don't have too much "hope" placed on this visit...

I hope the pain eases some today for you

Marie said...

Thanks, Janet! I will hang onto your words.

It sounds funny, but a variation on walking around the kitchen table (lol) could be walking in place. I have this home walking DVD and every once in a while I use that. It's great because you can do it at you own pace. It's by Leslie Sansone.

I hope the physiatrist is helpful. I know Suseo has a great one that has really made a difference for her.

The therapy pool would be great. Stretching in the pool and being able just to float around has been a godsend for me. On days when the treadmill is just too much, at least I know I will feel good in the pool.

Jessica said...

I love Leslie Sansone walking DVD, especially when I'm lazy :) Don't hang up on the mistake. The important thing is keep going, and feeling a little bit fitter everyday. Just forget about the scale for a while. Let me know if the multi vitamins is working out for you too :)

Anonymous said...

Guilt doesn't do anything except make your urges to eat more, happen more often - at least that is my accepted operating system.

No swimming but I am trying to do more around the house - climbing stairs several times a day - making simple furniture (well - putting together a kit.

Judy

Marie said...

For me guilt is one of my other senses - sight, hearing, taste, guilt... lol If I wasn't feeling guilty about something, I wouldn't know myself. But I get your point.

Stairs are good - 10 calories a flight! And putting together furniture has to be good for heaps of calories, if only expended in frustration!!